possessive.... c'est moi

wow. Just saw a picture of my friend and her boyfriend. A friend I had a huge crush on. Was TOTALLY not prepared to see that. I guess that's one way to drive a point home.

I'm still hanging out by myself here. Ate dinner alone in a dining hall full of people. This campus is ridiculous. Note to self: if you ever expect to make any friends, do NOT transfer in the middle of the year.

I have a bio exam on wednesday. I hate it. I hate everything. I'm a miserable, angry bitch, and it's no wonder that nobody wants to hang out with me. I am not a loner, so this kind of isolation is wreaking havoc on my brain.

At least I'm not so obsessed with kris today. in fact, I'm not obsessed, just stupid. At least today my brain is behaving itself and not bombarding me with ridiculous pipe dreams. I'll never figure out why I'm a dreamer. For some reason I second guess every "yes" answer I get, and refuse to accept "no" because there MIGHT be some situation that would turn it into a "yes", so that I can second guess it and drive it into the ground. A little sanity would be nice.

I'm going to go study or something.